so it starts

I am going to fernwood tonight to have a chat to them about me being so obese I can barely tie my shoelaces!!

I am nervous and freaked out and scared and all the other things taht come with that - but I am sick of being fat, I am sick of looking at myself in the mirror and seeing two chins, I am also sick of all my friends looking great in clothes I would love to buy but know there is no chance I would fit even one tow into.

I am severley unmotivated and I think this might be the thing I need to get into it, I am going to try to go as often as possible even if I only do 20 mins of something....at least I will be doing something.....

I am also going to start a little diary of how much I do, how much I have lost and pictures etc- everything is going in there....also i will be quitting smoking if i start at the gym because there is no point fixing myself if I am going to smoke - welkl not in my head anyway - it will just make it harder to work out if I can't breathe is all....

So tonight at 7.30pm I will be deciding if they can motivate me as much as I hope they can and maybe I can find a gym buddy while I am there which will help me a fair bit...

Anyway wish me luck that in a few months time I will look sexy for mny wedding and happier and healthier etc etc etc!!!!

hugs and kisses
dragonray

Fernwood

well i did it...I went and signed up and I have to go back wednesday and thursday...but all is done....I am quitting smoking when i finish this pack becuase i want to do it all and they seem really good there...so fingers crossed I will be motivated to go - for the price - I damn well better be motivated to go i think!!!

schools?

ok i saw this new school thing and I am a little confused...what is the point of it if there is nowhere to pst in it? are you supposed to read these people's journals and think of who they could be?? how pointless??

if you know what the purpose is please let me know. :)