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I am having insomnia again - i couldn't sleep last night, so I finally got out of bed and about 12.50am and went bsack to bed at about 3.20am but then tossed and turned for another hour or so...was very frustrating....
I have so much to organise with the whole vic thing now....it was left in such a shambles and I have no idea where to start...but I am slowly getting there I suppose....GOD HELP ME
And i found out yesterday I didn't get the job I was hoping to get - I really wanted it more than I have wanted another job - being a trainer is something I have been working for since I started at this company and they picked my good friend at work, over me, which I am very happy for her about, but can't help being a little miffed considering they have asked her on many occassions to be in the position and her team leader wouldn't let her leave, so I knew she was going to get it, and the feeedback i got from the interview also meant that I think they were just finding things to knock the competition out with...I know I know i sound paranoid, but I swear I am not....you will have to believe me on that. If they knew they wanted her they shouldn't have bothered interviewing us...was a waste of my time. SO anyway becuase of that I am now looking for work again - I say that becuase I never actually have looked for work, but I am going to this time.....
I don't particularly want to leave where I am, but if I have to i will....I am sick of being looked over for opportunities while everone else seems to keep going forward....and I have had enoughof feeling like shite when I walk into that place....I have to weeks off and all i can think about is how much I DON"T want to go back there and look at these people and act nice to them.....I really can't be fucked...maybe I should just be mrs biatch to everyone and see if that makes a difference...maybe people witll leave me along then huh?
anyway - feeling a little tired and awake at the same time...how does that happen....oh well off to organise a newsletter...ARGH!!!
dragonray
I have so much to organise with the whole vic thing now....it was left in such a shambles and I have no idea where to start...but I am slowly getting there I suppose....GOD HELP ME
And i found out yesterday I didn't get the job I was hoping to get - I really wanted it more than I have wanted another job - being a trainer is something I have been working for since I started at this company and they picked my good friend at work, over me, which I am very happy for her about, but can't help being a little miffed considering they have asked her on many occassions to be in the position and her team leader wouldn't let her leave, so I knew she was going to get it, and the feeedback i got from the interview also meant that I think they were just finding things to knock the competition out with...I know I know i sound paranoid, but I swear I am not....you will have to believe me on that. If they knew they wanted her they shouldn't have bothered interviewing us...was a waste of my time. SO anyway becuase of that I am now looking for work again - I say that becuase I never actually have looked for work, but I am going to this time.....
I don't particularly want to leave where I am, but if I have to i will....I am sick of being looked over for opportunities while everone else seems to keep going forward....and I have had enoughof feeling like shite when I walk into that place....I have to weeks off and all i can think about is how much I DON"T want to go back there and look at these people and act nice to them.....I really can't be fucked...maybe I should just be mrs biatch to everyone and see if that makes a difference...maybe people witll leave me along then huh?
anyway - feeling a little tired and awake at the same time...how does that happen....oh well off to organise a newsletter...ARGH!!!
dragonray
