really

well it has been a while since i have written anything half dramatic in here, and I feel the urge rising again, so I shall.

I hate people I have decided...how is that for dramtic....people shit me to tears. All I want is some friends/colleagues/acquaintances who think like I do. I am an idealist, I will admit that openly, but I can't see why it is such a problem, to expect people to act and deal with things a certain way?

Why is there so much bullshit and fucking around when something is so obvious, why is there arguments and discussions and running around for crap that is irrelevant? Do I see it as irrelevant because I am an idealist? Or simply becuase I am not one of these people that has to have an answer for everything before i do it. Just fucking do it, instead of bitching and moaning about something becuase you aren't sure what people will think, how about you pull your fucking finger out, try and then see what people say. Based then, on their feedback, you can alter and adjust accordingly. What is the point of adjusting if you have no feedback or data to work with? Am I fucking insane for thinking like this? It is like that proverb about running or something before you crawl? Or whatever the hell it is.

I don't generally liek to make assumptions, but lets face it - we are human it is our nature - but I REFUSE to make assumptions about people that I have never met or a community I barely know simply because I assume they won't like something. FFS - it drives me mad.

You know another thing people should learn - HOW TO SHUT THE FUCK UP!! In a meeting I ha recently, the poor person chairing the meeting was not being listened to or obeyed. Wait until you have been asked about the topic you want to bring up before you start ruining my fucking life by keeping me in a meeting for 3 hours because you are all too rude to shut up and wait your goddman turn. How many times do people need to be told to leave the topic until the correct section of the meeting?? HOW HARD??? Maybe I should take some bandanas into the meeting next time and tape people's mouths shut until they are allowed to talk to get the picture across.

giggle...fuck me I am angry today...lol....but I am only expecting people to treat others with respect and as if their opinions or views matter.

Anyway I have typed all i can be bothered typing today - people have pissed me off - i really think i need to sell everything I own, move to a mountain cave and grow my own vegetables....lol.....that way I can take some books with me and not have to deal with people.....I think I could sell enough stuff to buy a little cave somewhere in the middle of he bush....would defiantely need a running toilet in my cave though...I am not so good with the holes in the ground...giggle.......

onto other things now though

I am still looking for work, and taking my time about it, I don't want to get stuck with a crappy job...lol....I have sent my resume off for approx 25 jobs and have only hard back from 3 of them. So pretty bad rate of response, but what can you do...I will keep trying.

I didn't end up going to work on Friday or Today as I have not been able to walk more than 20 steps away from my loo without feeling the need to go back to it...such is life....I have barely slept since Thursday night, intruth I have spent more time awake than asleep and it is begining to take its toll on me..

The boi is working late shifts this week, until 10.30pm, and it is nights like this that I wish I was still playing WOW... :) but I have other things to do like organise this seasons newsletter which needs to be sent out as soon as possible with letters to all the ex-members. I will need to be paying for that out of my owm pocket as I still don't have access to the bank accounts as yet.

Other than that not much has been happening lately, we have been doing very little exciting stuff, although I am thinking of having a party this year for our Bday's in may, which could be kind of cool. We haven't had a party since we moved to Melbourne and I think it is about time we did. We used to have some OK parties in Sydney, but that was coz we were all alchoholics!! HAHAHAHA

So mrapophis and minxee keep your eyes open for more news on the party thing, at the moment, it is looking like the 5th May as it is in between both our bdays and just after our wedding anniversary, so it would be a kind of BIG party!! eheheheh....

Love and kisses
Dragonray