so it starts

[dragonray]

I am going to fernwood tonight to have a chat to them about me being so obese I can barely tie my shoelaces!!

I am nervous and freaked out and scared and all the other things taht come with that - but I am sick of being fat, I am sick of looking at myself in the mirror and seeing two chins, I am also sick of all my friends looking great in clothes I would love to buy but know there is no chance I would fit even one tow into.

I am severley unmotivated and I think this might be the thing I need to get into it, I am going to try to go as often as possible even if I only do 20 mins of something....at least I will be doing something.....

I am also going to start a little diary of how much I do, how much I have lost and pictures etc- everything is going in there....also i will be quitting smoking if i start at the gym because there is no point fixing myself if I am going to smoke - welkl not in my head anyway - it will just make it harder to work out if I can't breathe is all....

So tonight at 7.30pm I will be deciding if they can motivate me as much as I hope they can and maybe I can find a gym buddy while I am there which will help me a fair bit...

Anyway wish me luck that in a few months time I will look sexy for mny wedding and happier and healthier etc etc etc!!!!

hugs and kisses
dragonray

Comments

[minxee.livejournal.com]

I agree....You can do it. I know it's bloody hard. I'm on again/off again at Fernwood too. I think the secret is just getting into the routine of going there.

I'm starting back tomorrow. I ate my last high fat chinese meal today - gotta focus on eating better and getting my butt moving.

*hugs* I know you can do this hon - I've seen you do it all before :-)