so it starts
Jan. 9th, 2006 03:54 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
dragonrayI am going to fernwood tonight to have a chat to them about me being so obese I can barely tie my shoelaces!!
I am nervous and freaked out and scared and all the other things taht come with that - but I am sick of being fat, I am sick of looking at myself in the mirror and seeing two chins, I am also sick of all my friends looking great in clothes I would love to buy but know there is no chance I would fit even one tow into.
I am severley unmotivated and I think this might be the thing I need to get into it, I am going to try to go as often as possible even if I only do 20 mins of something....at least I will be doing something.....
I am also going to start a little diary of how much I do, how much I have lost and pictures etc- everything is going in there....also i will be quitting smoking if i start at the gym because there is no point fixing myself if I am going to smoke - welkl not in my head anyway - it will just make it harder to work out if I can't breathe is all....
So tonight at 7.30pm I will be deciding if they can motivate me as much as I hope they can and maybe I can find a gym buddy while I am there which will help me a fair bit...
Anyway wish me luck that in a few months time I will look sexy for mny wedding and happier and healthier etc etc etc!!!!
hugs and kisses
dragonray
I am nervous and freaked out and scared and all the other things taht come with that - but I am sick of being fat, I am sick of looking at myself in the mirror and seeing two chins, I am also sick of all my friends looking great in clothes I would love to buy but know there is no chance I would fit even one tow into.
I am severley unmotivated and I think this might be the thing I need to get into it, I am going to try to go as often as possible even if I only do 20 mins of something....at least I will be doing something.....
I am also going to start a little diary of how much I do, how much I have lost and pictures etc- everything is going in there....also i will be quitting smoking if i start at the gym because there is no point fixing myself if I am going to smoke - welkl not in my head anyway - it will just make it harder to work out if I can't breathe is all....
So tonight at 7.30pm I will be deciding if they can motivate me as much as I hope they can and maybe I can find a gym buddy while I am there which will help me a fair bit...
Anyway wish me luck that in a few months time I will look sexy for mny wedding and happier and healthier etc etc etc!!!!
hugs and kisses
dragonray
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Date: 2006-01-09 12:19 pm (UTC)Whats Fernwood? Diet clinic? I've just decide I MUST do something too. I'm tired of it. goona strat back at the gym... was going to say tomorrow but its after one am... somehow I don't think so.=P
Nice to see ya bcak. Back for good? Hope so.=DDD